intimidation is ones own worst enemy

i need to take that step.. i feel stuck in quick sand, yet i know its self induced. when did i become so timid?  slowly coming out of this, trance of second guessing, but like an addict.. i fall back in, come back for more; repetitive like.  surrounded by amazing people with welcoming hands, supporting and strengthening my weak knees - words of encouragement, open arms, a backbone.  what would i without you. why second guess? why not just leap? rhetorics... i need to scream [i guess this is a sort of... thank you for not giving up on me as others have so often you do not become strong because life was easy.. lessons form callused palms ..strong stance, wise hearts - watch me bend but never break]